Oh, it was beautiful
When I had but you to fill
When I was one part shadow
Two parts echo
A gecko on the walls of your heart
Through your halls I roamed
Silent from the start
Quiet till the end
I called you home
I called you friend
I was hauntingly unaware
Of my own hapless hollowing
My life spent in following
Your trace element
And so it went
You violence defined me
Your voice redefined me
I was always behind
Bewilderedly blind
I moved to your music
Unconsciously, deliciously, un-nutritiously, and viciously confined
Masochistly misaligned
I was happy to be
For all eternity
Empty infinitely
Forever and ever
However….
The impact of a heartbeat’s echo
In an empty chest
Is hard to ignore
Too prominent to dominate
Too consistently insistent
Hard to quieten
It made me feel twice as alive
And infinitely more aware
Of my undeniable mortality
While your anger pulled me
Hither and thither
It un-fooled me
You’d failed to consider
That in hollowness
Sound is not swallowed
But amplified
Impossible to hide
You had me so empty
And so miniscule
That I almost drowned
In the glorious sound
Of a majestic echo
In the limitless possibilities of my own big bang
I rang and resounded
I sang, unbounded
My freedom new-founded
And I lost sight of your face
Within that sepulchral space
I ceased calling you friend
I stopped living for you
Because I never knew I didn’t end…
But now I do.